Keroro

A lot of things have happened in a short period of time... I guess it's time to really keep track of my progress. Looking forward to an awesome 2014 with Keroro! ♥

Planning each day according to God's will... Let's go! ☺

12 Days of Kindness

"To change the world is by doing one Act of Random Kindness at a time. 
That's how you build an ARK."



"But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you." 

- Matthew 6:3-4

Not really into the reward, but I strongly believe that when we are doing something good, we should be discreet about it. Being kind to others is being kind to Him. Serving others is serving Him. Loving others is loving Him. Doing good is basically fulfilling His will.

But to create and spread awareness for a good purpose is I think an exemption. Sometimes, we just have to share our thoughts to remind those who tend to forget that we are not here for nothing. In this imperfect temporary world, we all have the power to make a change.

The Jubilee Project: Do you believe in little acts of kindness? We do.

We believe that a sweet note can not only change someone’s day but potentially change their life. We believe that by engaging with others, even the most simple gestures can make a world of difference. And we believe that this holiday season our hugs, donations and creativity will make the world a little bit sweeter.

The Jubilee Project 12 Days of Kindness (#12DOK) is a campaign to inspire people to participate in simple acts of kindness. Throughout the month, we will take part in various activities that will help change the world. After each day, we'll ask you to facebook and tweet an image of you participating in this activity using the hashtags @JubileeProject and #12DOK. 

Learn more at www.jubileeproject.org/12DOK 

Day 1. I made a commitment. 
Although I am one-day late, I believe it's never too early nor too late to be kind.

Feel free to join as well! And let's be kind in 12 days until we all make this a habit :)

One RARE Escapade

MSU-Naawan

(the farthest place I've been to without asking Mama and Papa's permission)

... and I had so MUCH fun! ♥

(sorry Mama and Papa, didn't want you both to worry)

True Friends Conversation

I just thought the topic is worth to be talked about and to share with everyone. Some parts of the conversation may not be relevant but were included cause I think it should be like this... 

X: ay o, tabangi ko beh. unsaon pagpaningil sa bossing? hahahaha gina unsa nimo tu sauna?

Y: haha di man ko tigpaningil oyy. allergic bia ko ug money matters. haha. naghulat rajud ko sa una... haha luoy kaayo XD ako rang gihuna2x, kabalo bia si Lord sa akong gibuhat, so Sya nay bahala. hehe pero bitaw, mao pud bia diba? hehe

X: dah oiiiii maulaw man ku ui pero dili lang pud ko anang muhulat

Y: hahaha hulat ra oyy, si Lord nay bahala magpakonsensya ato haha

X: sabagay saktu pud, lage maluoy jud na c Lord dili bia lalim mag copy paste hahahaha pero basin mahutdan nata sa free toy aw hahahahaha

Y: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH murag lain lage paminawun, murag si Lord lage atong gipakonsensya? haha buang! pero btaw, dili oyy, kabalo bia si Lord, binlan lage ta ana Niya hahaha pero dibaaaa?  

X:  lage, He will always give what's BEST. basta mao lang jud na ang i pray.. mao man ang tudlo sa ako ni Z dili jud na xa mag pray na ma top 1 xa or whatever, ang iya lang is kung unsa jud ang karapat dapat niya dayun serenity lang dayun to accept His will  

Y: awwww... feel jud lage nako di mo magdaun ayy, magpari sya, magmadre ka... HAHAHHA pero bitaw, noh? nice 

X: rots pero btaw, wala pa diay nako na na chikka bahala bitaw ana rana xa, for me xa jud ang pinaka ang influence sa ako na mag love ug trust kai Lord 

sauna man gud ang akung belief is tinigulang (nakuha nako sa akung lola) kanang kailangan mag pray kai magabaan or ma imperno or whatever kanang out of fear bitaw, dili out of love  

Y: awwwwww cute kay gina-involve ninyo si Lord sa inyong egat2x. aw, i mean relationship  

awwww... mao2x.  

X: dayun naa pud diay koy na hear, this time sa akung cuzn.. diba naay times na makonsenxa ta kai murag feel nato dili ta worthy sa Iyang blessings? naa puy times na murag para mapa gaan nato atung feelings kai mag buhat tag good, para murag mabayran nato XA 

dapat dili jud daw natu na i feel na dapat ta mubayad sa iyang mga ginahatag kai the fact daw na gi sacrifice Niya iyang only son, mao najud to ang epitome sa kung unsa ta Niya ka love na ga uros2x iyang love for us 

dapat i feel lang jud nato na love kaayo ta Niya super dayun naturally ra daw mugawas ang goodness kai we feel super loved naman daw  

Y: SAMUKA SAD SA TERM NA UROS2X OYY!!! HAHAHAHA  

X: mura bitaw ug kanang naa ka sa nindot na mood, ma buotan jud bia ka unconsciously diba? so murag ana, dapat wala daw guilt ang atung pag dawat sa love para kita pud daw mismo makahatag ug love na walay kapalit  

hahahahaha! wala jud koy lain na term na ma huna2xan  

ay hala, saree ha kai ikaw akung ginapagawsan sa mga akung nadiscover kai Lord murag sayangan man gud ko kung dili nako ma share, kami ra tawun ni Z ang mga share2x, sumo na kaayo hahahaha  

Y: hahaha buang! unsay sorry? haha ganahan gani ko... infairness bia, usa ka sa mga tao nga akong makasturya ug buang2x pero open ug mga topic abt kang Lord.. nice kay mao bia jud ang reality, Siya bia jud ang reality, then ginasturyahan lang sya sa church, dili jud everyday in public... sad noh?  

X: actually dili na bia kai ko gasimba run murag dili ko feel at home with Him sa church murag ang pag depict man gud sa Iya sa mga pari (labaw na kanang mga bishop chever) kai kanang mamugos xa na ma but-an ta kanang idala ug pa konsenxa ba 

mas ganahan ko sa pag deliver sa mga born again kai kanang idepict nila si Lord na loving kaayo na kanang gusto bitaw gyud Niya na malipay ta, na kung naay challenges gusto lang Niya ma strengthen ta dili bitaw tungod kai punishment or nagabaan  

pero dili pud ko ganahan magpaconvert kai ganahan man ko sa mga ceremonias natu, ang ako lang di ganahan kai ang wali maong nadiscover nako c Bo although Catholic xa, iyang pag deliver sa Word kai kanang pareha'g style sa Born Again Christian  

hahahaha yawyawa nako oi. sorry, ang super junior natu dra hahahaha  

Y: ako pud... masuko na gani na akong papa ug pinukaw nako kay di na ko muuban ug simba sa ila... actually, kung magsimba ko, ako rajud usa... then dili man kaayo ko into the mass, ceremony, pagpangalawat, and everything... kay para jud nako, personal jud kaayo ang atong relationship sa iya... dili jud mag-matter kung gi-unsa nimu sya pag-worship kay kabalo man gud nah sya sa imung heart. then actually pud, ma-sad ko if mag-sturya2x ang mga tao abt unsay sakto nga religion... sya raman gud ang nakabalo, in the end, sya raman gud ang mu-judge... ang imung binuhatan man iyang tanawun ug imung pagtuo iyang tanawun, dili man ata kung unsa imung association... 

aw lage nuon, nice jud si bo...  

kita na ka ani? http://youtu.be/Xu5mA59knbI maka-guilty jud bia kay murag how come in-ani ta nia ka love despite sa atong mga binuhatan? haaay... we have an amazing God :'| excited bia jud ko ma-meet na sya ayy... sige bia ko ug kadamgo na makita nako sya munaog from heaven...  

haha buang!  

X: maojuddddddd akung lola kai ingnan mig erehes kai dili manimba ang ending musimba lage pero dili maminaw  

sauna kai konsenxa kaayo ko na dili ko makasimba murag bad bitaw kaayo ko dayun kung mabagsak ko i basul dayun nako sa dili pag simba na gina punish ko ni God.. dili nako gusto ma ingun ana ko.. gusto lang jud nako hunahunaon pirme na naay reason ang tnan nahitabo sa ako.. 

up to now, sakit jud bia japun sa aku ang akung dili pag take, daghan kog na disappoint and all and makasuya jud na ga move on na akung batchmates, ga trabahu na etc at first gina deny man nako, na wala ko nasuya, na okay ra, etc pero katung pagkakita nako sa preaching ni Bo, naliwanagan jud ko. okay raman diay ma hurt, okay raman diay maka feel ug suya, ok ra malain, so long as in the end mutuo lang jud ko na naay plano si Lord na mas maayo

wala pako kita.. cge i'll check it out unya pagkatulog ani ni kuia tam hahaha kai hastang paspasa sa net 

at first mahadlok ko na mu anhi na Xa, pero i think na up to now naay part of me na mahadlok kai kabalo man gud ko kung unsa ko ka sinful, pero every time na mag huna huna ko kung unsa Xa ka loving, i have this feeling na mapasaylo raman ko Niya sa tanan2x ba. kai gatuo man ko Nia jud  

although daghan kaayo ga ingon na dili Xa ga exist, etc never jud nako na feel or nahunahuna ba na walay God. ambot lang, dili nako ma imagine ang life na wala tay gina tuohan na God  

Y: "okay raman diay ma hurt, okay raman diay maka feel ug suya, ok ra malain, so long as in the end mutuo lang jud ko na naay plano si Lord na mas maayo" awww... T.T sakto2x... 

then basta bitaw ma-hurt ta, feel jud nako ma-hurt jud pud kaayo nah sya... pero kailangan bitaw nato jud ma-experience ang tanan kay part jud sya sa iyang great plans para sa ato... mao gani nah usahay, basta ma-super depress bitaw ko, ihilak lang jud nako tanan then i-feel jud nako nga iya kong gi-hug while nag-hilak... maka-realize rajud ko na everything will be fine in His time.

actually, hadlok man jud aqng mga damgo pud... kanang murag naa jud bitaw calamities.. naa pajud toy kas-a nga wa ko nia kwaa sa aqng damgo. samukaaaaaaaaaa haha pero bitaw, excited jud ko kay kabalo ko masabtan ra nato ang tanan by that time... then dad-on jud ta nia sa heaven, dad-on jud ta nia kung asa jud ta dapat... diba, earth is just our temporary home? matod pa sa The Purpose Driven Life... murag kumbaga, practice room rajud nato ni, dili jud ta para diri... para jud ta sa eternity mao gani mag-thank you ko if hate bitaw jud nako ang system sa world, kay it means, dili jud ko ganahan mag-stay diri, kay dili jud ko para diri..  

X: T__________T samuka oi, nakahilak na kai ko sa intro pero nagkatawa lage ko sa wala kwaa ai hahahahaha giatooooooot  

bitaw noh?? wala ko ka huna2x anang naay meaning diay ang atung pag hate ani na world, saktu jud, it just shows na we're not meant for here 

thankful kaayo ko ni Lord kai I have you and Z sa akung life kai ginasabot man gud ko ninyo pwede jud bitaw nako ipakita akung self kai confident ko na dili mu mang judge or kung mang judge man, for the better. para ma improve ko, to change.. dili bitaw para ma feel nako kung unsa ko ka bad na person or to make me feel bad about myself

So thank you jud for sticking by me, kabalo ko na daghan kog nabuhat na nahurt ka pero deep in my heart, wala jud nako gi intend everrrr na i hurt ka sorry jud kaayoo, sometimes lang jud cguro sakit na akong mga joke dili lang ko aware. ana man gud ko ka at ease with you, na kanang dili na mag huna2x bitaw  

Y: HAHAHAHAHAH sarrreeh, pero mao jud tong nahitabo. grabe sad si Lord oyy. hehe pero bitaw, mao gani... if ma-hurt bitaw ta, ok rajud nah... cuz we're not meant to experience a great life here.  

awwww... same here, thankful pud ko kay Lord tungod nimu (wala koy Z, so sad) HAHAHAHA pero lage, ingun bia ko sa imu jud sauna diba? musabot jud ka nako bahalag maskin ako di na nako masabtan akong self. thank you true friend 

naa jud tay purpose du! gibuang2x lang nato ning pagpalambo sa pinas pero murag naa juy gusto ipabuhat si Lord sa ato... di palang jud ko kabalo unsa, pero if in time mahibal-an najud bitaw nato, ma-gets najud nato ang iyang message, let's do it haaaa? let's try to be a better person everyday... 

awwww... T.T sorryyyyy~~ selfish jud kaayo to aqng mga nafeel sa una. pero dili na bia jud ayyy. sorry.... T.T  

X: haha samuka oi, nagdrama naman nuon ko, pero btaw mao jud akung na feel. salamat sa tanan! :)))) dugay2x pajud ta mag kita ani kai ambot lang kung ipa leave kang brad pitt hahahaha pero see you when i see you. antos2x lang sa jud tas stress ani :))))  

hahahaha samuka sa (wala koy Z, so sad) oiiiiii hahahahahahahaha!  

lage jud naa jud purpose ni atung damgo, dili man literal na mapalambo ang pinas pero ma feel jud nako we will make a difference, mag start ta by being better persons.  

overrrsss, dili ui, normal rxn rajud tu, kasabot man pud ku sa imung gibati, maong karon careful najud ko (gamay hahahaha) sa akung gina ingun.. dili ko gusto na ma push away taka para lang sa mga walay kwenta na joke.. pero pagsounds lang pud bia ha kung nitukar napud akung pagka over hahahaha mu preno jud dayun ko, pramis hahahahahha  

btw, bahala bitaw gina agi natu nag binuang ang true friend para sa ako perfect kaayo jud xa na description para sa atu. murag ang best man gud kai kanang pang good times lang bah, ang true man gud kai through good times & bad times.. chaaaaaarrrrr  

hala omggggg hapit na mag ooooone!! hahahahaha mers jud kang brad pitt aniiiii hahahaha  

Y: OYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! NGANONG NI-TRANSFORM NA KA FROM FUNNYTRAGEDY13 TO SADTRAGEDY13 T.T (dili ko mag-selfie bahalag i'm so sad, wa koy ipad, HAHAHAHA)  

pero btaw... abt btaw anang "wala koy Z, so sad", dili bia jud ko sad nga single ko or walay gipares2x sa ako, or unsa pa nah... mao bitaw dili kay ko tig-share pud abt ana, kay mutuo jud ko na kung gusto jud ni Lord maka-experience ko ug in-ana, ihatag raman jud nah nia... manang kaayo paminawun noh? haha pero mao jud aqng pagtuo abt ana. kabalo man gud sya sa akong kailangan. so happy rajud ko kung unsa man gani. if di man jud gani ko maminyo, which possible jud, happy ra bia jud ko maghuna2x kay kabalo ko dili man ko alone... i have the best partner ever up there! wala jud sya nakig-break sa ako since then, bahalag kapila na ko nakig-cool off. charot. haha pero noh? gusto ka mubasa sa aqng love story?? http://maeming19.blogspot.com/2012/12/my-love-story.html hahahahaha  

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH yes yes yes! dunggabon ra tika kung sobra nah. hahahaha  

CHAROT SA TRUE FRIENDS HAHAHA pero noh?? weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~ thank you 

haha manigas si bradpit! ako ang CEO! HAHAHAHA  

X: cge oistttt, i know kabalo naman ka kung gi unsa taka pag treasure jud behind all the binuangs and pagpangaway.   

omggggg ngano karon paman ka aniiii hahahahaha lemme seeeeeee  

Awwwwwweeee. :')  

Y: charooot, treasurer na diay ka karun??? HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA bitaw, i hope dili pud ka mag-doubt sa aqng gratitude to have you let's be true friends until He comes back haaa? AAAAAAAAAAAHHHH~~ amazing jud kaayo nah nga day ayyy 

btaw oyy, thank you for this quality chat... na sad na nuon ko ug samot nga mulakaw na ka T.T  

X: Pero ga expect jud ko na about kai Brad Pitt to na article da AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA  

Y: PISTE!!!! HAHAHAHAHHA infairness kang bradpit noh, mutuo sya ni Lord. nice kay makasturya2x mi ug mga in-ana sa office  

X: pero bitawwwwww, to be quite honest wala jud sa akung hunahuna na mag chorva2x any time soon. binuang raman nang sungogun taka pero kung seryosohay najud, la jud ko nag huna2x makita man gud jud nako na happy ka and i know kung unsa jud kai ka attached kai God pero kabalo pud kung dili ka madawat sa kumbento so maong i know gipa happy jud ka Nia kung asa ka karun  

as iiiiiiin? hala ka nice.. :))) meant to be najud mong braddy hahahaha  

Y: piste! di jud diay ko madawat sa kumbento? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH SAMUKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA 

hooy, ayaw pud pag-inana oyy, mutuo gani nah si Lord nimu ah! haha pero bitaw oyy, dili oyy.. ayaw lang pud Lord oyy... i mean, ah basta! kasabot na si Lord ana. HAHAHAHAHA  

unsay chorva2x? paki-define daw.. kita ra bitaw duha HAHAHAHA  

X: pistiiiiiii imbis akung gi savour akung tag 90 na milk tea, naluwa na nuon nakug kinatawa!!!! hahahahaha  

Y: HAAAAAAAAAAA? WA PA NAHUROT???? HAHAHAHAHA GRABE NAJUD! LISUD JUD NIAY MANGITAG KWARTA! HAHAHAHAHAH  

X: pero btaw, ayaw lang tawun c braddy kai IT raba ka, abi palang nag IT ka para ma chatter.. hahahaahahahahaha 

buyooooongggg akung gi ref ganina oi, bag-o rajud nako gikuha  

chorva2x=uyab2x.. excited nakas nxt lvl ha, wa pa gani ka ka lvl 1 hahahahaha 

X: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH SAMUKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA mahal bia gasto para ma-IT ko, nag-accounting pa bia ko pra lang maka-graduate ana HAHAHAHAHAHA  

Y: lage, effort kayug paskwela ang ginikanan nimo sa imu, unya chatter ra diay imung labas hahahahaha  

X: HAHAHAHAH grabe najud haaa, murag balig-500 imung milk tea, murag naa pajud siguro japun kay masuyop ana bahalag wa na nay sulod. hahaha  

HOOOOOOYYYY~~ wag ganyan, naa bia jud mga chatter. haha pero bitaw ba noh? dili magbugal2x sa mga chatter. hehe  

ayyy, uyab2x diay? tsk. i expect too much from you, disappointing HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA 

X: hahahahaha samuka gyud kayo natu oi, basta mag sturya ta, emotional whirlwind gyud.. hahahaha! mingawun na nuon ko satung mga chekka.. hehe namurak gyud diay ta bah? gibawi jud nag 6 months.. kabantay ka halos kada gabii nlng ta mag chat? hahahahaha chatters jud diay ta hahahahahah 

kamu ni A pag sturya kai mismo ako, malisang kos inyung kalag! hahahaha 

Y: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH SAMUKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA chatters jud diay HAHAHA SAMUKA JUD OYYY HAHHAHA pero lage noh? grabe pampamawi oyy. basta oyy, antos lang jud ta... pasalamat ta ni Lord nga naay fb. haha see you again soon true friend text lang kung unsa man gani ha? matulog na ko madam... kay wa najud, basin muhigda na kog kalit ugma sa bed ni bradpit HOY JUSKO!!! AYAW BIA PAGHUNA2X UG DAOTAN DIRA! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH  

aw, kana kay A... hahaha hala oyy, another topic na daghan ko ug isulti pero wa najud, kahulogon na aqng mata. HAHAHAHAHA pero btaw, salamat jud kaayo i will miss you T.T God bless sa pag-review!! ayaw na kaayo paghuna2x abt sayang and everything haaaa? ma-sad si Lord if ma-sad ka... kaya lage nimu ni! do it this time for Him good night!  

X: hahahahahahahaha! giatooooootttt!!! hahahahahah! cge gowwww, goodnight! i will miss you tooooo! bisita-i bia ko ninyo.. :))))) yup yup, maningkamut nako and i'll be happy! good night true friend!!! mag impake nlng diay pud kug tiwas kai dugay kai nis Don mumata oi! hahahaah  

Y: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA SAMUKA SAD ANANG DON OYYY! PALABI! HAHAHAHAHAHA lage2x, bisita ra ko ^^ i-ready ang gengko behlohba.... (kaw na bahala sumpay, kabalo na ka) ha?? HAHAHAHAHA  

X: nyahahahaha! night! zzzzzzzzz

... talking about Him like He is part of everyone's daily conversation.

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON

Constantly remind yourself.
That big guy up there sees the whole picture.
He understands your heart.

He will make me fine

I sometimes wonder, do I really deserve this?
What's the purpose... Where would this lead me to...

And I trust Him.

I never looked at "crying" as a sign of being weak.
I love how He created our human body to release heavy feelings without hurting anyone.
I love how He designed our heart to feel and overcome different kind of emotions.
I have always been shedding tears to save myself and protect others.

I maybe cried today but I know I will be fine.
I will be fine. He will make me fine.

People leaving in dominoes...

And even if you can't understand it yet, keep the faith! 

You'll eventually see the whole picture soon. 

*pats own back*

Twenties

“You realize you are not alone, right? No one in their twenties has life figured out.

It’s okay to be a mess. You’re living.”

Sunny ♥

Getting expelled from school isn't the end of Sunny.

We'll meet again, bring Su-ji with us 

and dance what we couldn't dance today.

We'll meet again.

If you ignore us because your life is too good, we'll go and punish you.

If you hide because your life sucks, we'll go and make it better.

I don't know who will die first among us, 

but until that day...

No, even beyond that day...

We, Sunny, will never break up.

Sunny. Definitely, a must-watch movie.

I am not into k-dramas but this I think, by far, is the most meaningful k-drama I have ever watched. Great story about friendship, overcoming the reality of life.

I miss my friends. Some of my closest friends are physically far from me. I once thought, you'll come to realize that you're getting old when you can't see your friends more often. Though in today's generation, several modes of communication are available, hanging out with friends physically is still different. I value friendship a lot. That's why missing my friends is really hard. But I guess, this is really part of life. Friends living their own lives, taking a separate journey, walking different path.

And that... is something sad about life. It's the reality and I have no choice but to deal with it. But I sometimes wonder, am I being too sensitive? Am I overthinking? Or is this still part of my post-graduation dilemma syndrome?

Never thought that growing up is this tough. Dealing with such emotions every single day. *sigh* 

I'll get through this... Someday... Someday...

Living life separately is not the end.

We'll meet again and dance what we couldn't dance today.

We'll meet again.

If you ignore me because your life is too good, I'll go and punish you.

If you hide because your life sucks, I'll go and make it better.

I don't know who will die first among us, but until that day...

No, even beyond that day....

We will never break up.

Not meeting again when death comes. Thinking about that just saddens me.
See you soon, friends ♥

PS. I'll haunt and punch you really hard if you make me miss you a lot T.T

PPS. Download 'Sunny' here :)

A happy person can be sad too...

I open up rarely.
Don't make fun of my emotions.
It tells me that I have no right to be sad.
It's depressing.
Srsly.

I am a human being.
I feel this effin' sadness.
For the record, I don't act.
It's never my fault.
I never wanted this.

If you can't stand my sadness, leave me alone.
Thank you. Just a little respect.

/sigh/ Ever since, I am not into sharing my real emotions. It seems like the world has no room for my inner struggles. People making fun of me because I allow them to. They laugh, and feel happy about it. But when I'm sad, it feels like I don't have the right. Why people? Why? Why are you so selfish? Just depressing.

Like you guys, I can be sad too :(

FAITH

"FAITH is not the belief that God will do what you want. 

It is the belief that God will do what is RIGHT."

Happy Day!!

I was really sad every time I feel the pain you were keeping in your heart. It was so selfish for me to laugh at your jokes and thank you for making me happy. I was really sad when you left. It was so selfish for me to feel that way when I knew you were for a great journey.

This time, after hearing what I've been waiting for... I am just the happiest. I am really happy to hear the news. Is it still so selfish for me to be this happy?

I want to celebrate but I don't think it's enough. The happiness that I feel right now, I don't know how to fully express it. I want to thank God for all His plans. You have gone through a lot of struggles and pain but this moment wouldn't be any sweeter if not because of all that.

I am just so happy for you Kathy! ♥ 

From the start, I know He knew how to reward you. He has been always there for you. He has seen everything. He knows your pure heart. And thank you for not giving up! I won't feel this kind of happiness if you didn't follow your heart. I am so proud of you Kathy! :)

Let's keep pushing Ahjumma! We'll really get there. He will bring us there! Araso? Hwaiting!!

PS. This blog is srlsy becoming an Allkpop daily, weekly, monthly, yearly update about you. HAHA But that awesome moment na kita rang duha ang nakasabot sa atong kahimtang. Ahhhh~~ Ako ra ang naka-subscribe sa Allkpop. HAHAHA God bless sa journey Ahjumma!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ 

I miss you Ahjumma~ ♥

They said I was sad when you left because I will start eating my lunch alone.
Little did they know, our friendship is way more than that.

I never treated you as my lunch buddy.
You were the only one who selflessly gave your time to comfort me.
Having lunch together during those difficult days, I never thought of you being there to accompany me.
Your presence gave me strength. Your presence gave me the courage to believe in myself.
You were not my lunch buddy. You were not just there during lunch.
You were my "best" friend. You have been there ALWAYS.

People might find this OA.
But they won't understand. They never would. They never could.
Wala koy mapagawsan sa akong gibati T_T
I have to do this for myself. Pasaylua akong aryat nga hemotion ><

I miss you Ahjumma~~ T.T
Thank you for "spreading love love love" with me maskin naa naka dira ♥
This physical distance is hurting us <////3
Wa na qy ka-chat sa fb ><
Worse, dili na tika basta2x makuhit :((
Worst, dili na ta maka-fangirl (ug burak) together T______T HAHAHA
But thank you Globe and TM for unlicall and text. BAHAHAHAHA!

I miss you Kat T.T
But I am not sad :)
I am so happy hearing great things happening to you ♥
Konting tiis ahjumma... We'll get there. Araso? :D

Saranghae~~ Hwaiting!!! ♥

PS. Boomshakalaka! :))))

PPS. Posted this on the 20th of September... Exactly 3 months after I started to become okay. Thank you Kat. Being there with me on that very day, you have no idea how grateful I was and will forever be. Kamsahamnida Ahjumma-ssi! :)

PPPS. I really miss you Ahjumma :(( But I'm really happy for you ♥

PPPPS. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA wala na bitaw XD Annyeong! :P

PPPPPS. Naa pa bitaw :P HAHAHAH akong last 2 posts kay starring kay ka. Yung totoo! Imu ning blog? Artista ka? Allkpop daily, weekly, monthly, yearly update? HAHAHA Annyeong najud! ^^

T.T

"Cry if you need to, it's healthy to shed your tears. 

The sooner you do, the sooner you will be able to smile again..."

Adjustment stage...

T.T

People come and go...

People come and go... I truly believe in that. All sorts of relationship are not permanent. Nothing in this world is constant. But I strongly believe that God gave us the will to decide.

I can't take how I feel. I have seen people leaving but this time, it's just different. I can't put it into words. But one thing's clear, if you leave, a part of me will be missing.

I won't ask you to stay. In fact, I want you to go and follow your heart. I want you to reach your dreams. I want you to be happy about yourself. I have seen you sad a lot of times. It's a pity because I can't help you enough. I'm sorry for being selfish when I say that when you leave, I will be sad. I will be sad everyday when I think of the situation. But don't think about it. Because at the same time I will be happy. I am proud of you for taking the risk, for being so brave.

People come and go... but we have the will to decide to be together and be there for each other until the end, no matter what.

Enjoy the journey my friend. I know you could do it! 

I'm gonna miss you. Please take care and see you soon~ ♥

PS. Sige ra kog hilak T.T On the replay pajud ang HARU sa Suju. Ikaw najud akong madumduman pag mu-play na ni sa aqng playlist. Maglaslas na daun ko kay mag-hemote napud si ahjumma. Haaayyy~~

Ahjumma, HWAITING!!! ♥

Small honest talks.

"I am a man. I am not that sensitive.
I am a westerner. That makes me more insensitive.
Worst. I am more insensitive than any westerner.
I need your help. Guide me."

Not the exact words but that's the thought.

Again, it has nothing to do with anyone else...
But that made me understand you better, Sir.
Thanks. I'll try my best :)

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I wholeheartedly believe that "man is born good". If we open our mind and find out the real story behind, I think we would understand why people act as such.

Small honest talks... Reaching out and sharing thoughts. One of my favorites in life.

It's just ME. *sigh*

When someone trusts me... but I don't believe in myself.
I feel thankful. I feel the pressure.

When someone considers my potential... but I doubt my capabilities.
I feel flattered. I feel the pressure.

When someone relies on me... but I feel weak.
I feel honored. I feel the pressure.

When someone forgives me... but I can't stop blaming myself.
I feel relieved. I feel the pressure.

I am not afraid of failure.
But I hate failing when others will be compromised.

Don't trust me much.
Don't consider my potential all the time.
Don't rely on me always.

I feel the HUGE responsibility.
That pressures me. That crushes me along the way.

If I fail, you might forgive me. But I can't forgive myself easily.
And that kills me in the end.

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It has nothing to do with anyone else. It's just ME.
Upset and frustrated with myself.

Don't be too hard on yourself next time, Mae. *pats own self*

SS3 Live in Carbide

Because I'm naughty, naughty~~

BAM BAM-BAM-BAM BAM-BAM!

Bounce to you bounce to you, nae ga sema noh

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Break it down to you, down to you, nae ga sema noh!

Because we fangirl like that yo!

Uri Shupi Juni....

O-eyo!

HAHAHAHAHAHA

:P

August 31-September 1. Charr. 2-day concert ang peg? HAHAHAHA

Dili makontento mag-fangirl sa facebook. Nag-overnight nalang jud para mutan-aw ug Super Show 3. HAHAHA Fun night. Thanks Kathy~~ ♥

Ok ra di ta ka-adto sa SS5 this year. Naa si bb kyu, mag-enjoy jud ko! Pero wala imung yesung-ah, i don't care HAHAHAHAHA so pangit japun. Bati man sad ang concept. Di lang jud ta ka-afford sa 8,800 HAHAHAHA

Annyeong :P

The Elements

Like what I said, I'm not used to sharing. I really thought of not telling the story anymore. But I felt the guilt of not letting you know about it. Thank you for being genuine. Thank you cuz I wasn't afraid of sharing it to the both of you. Sorry for being selfish secretive sometimes (if not always).

I am now okay... and I feel a lot better for letting you know what happened.

Fun. Fun. Night~ ♥

Thank you Nadz and Bet for being the most awayunon humble and craziest friends.

Atten..... SHUN!!!!

Dearest Mica, Nenia, Banisa, and Cloe... We miss you though! Dagko na ta. Lisud na jud tapukon >< Kanus-a ta mag-tugsh2x sunod?? HAHAHAHA

PS. Thank you sa pasalubong Nadz and Bet~ ^^

"Change"

I never wanted change. I am into routine. I embrace my comfort zone. But someone told me once that the only way for me to grow is to make my space bigger.

When I was dealing with all those things by myself, I never felt completely alone. It may sound pathetic but they were somewhat the reason why I kept myself sane. I won't explain how because I've realized that I don't have to let everyone know the whole story. Silence can sometimes be used as an armor against judgmental people. I won't ask for everyone's understanding because I am only bound to do so to those who matter to me; who would accept and understand me without asking anything.

Two months ago, she came and helped me to stand again. One month after that, I finally told myself "I AM OKAY". Now, she knocked on my door. She tried to step into a world that I created for myself, for my own happiness. She's starting to find happiness by knowing them.

I guess I have to thank "Yesung-ah" for leading you into this "world" XD

Again, let's not stress ourselves. Let's remind each other that this is just another source of happiness. We don't have to take responsibilities. We don't have to take so much effort. We don't have to hurt ourselves just to be happy.

Thank you for being with me again, Kathy.

Today has definitely been a new and great experience.

Please remember that it's okay to change. It's okay to decide for yourself. It's okay to stick with your decision despite everyone's disapproval. As long as you're not hurting anyone, believe in your judgment.

Today, I am really proud of you. You have been so brave to take such change. And thank you for dragging me along.

Just so you know, I feel a lot better.

And less lonely much happier :)

I am not certain of what's gonna happen next week, next month. But one thing's for sure, I am satisfied with what we did today. 

BAM BA-BAM-BAM BAM-BAM :)))

One Piece [Updated]

I once compiled all of my favorite lines, quotes, jokes, etc. of Bleach before in a notebook. But unfortunately, typhoon Sendong destroyed it. /cries/ So now, I decided to create this post to be updated as I continue this looooooong journey of watching One Piece.

"It's not about impossible or possible. I'm doing it because I want to." - Luffy | 001 [08.17.2013]

God has already planned out every detail of your life right down to the very second.

"Think about our solar system, the way it rotates. Scientists tell us that every year it’s exactly on time down to the millisecond, day after day, year after year. Hundreds of years from now if the Lord tarries, it will still be precise. 

That’s because our God is not an approximate God. He is an exact God, a detailed God, a precise God. He has planned out your life not just to the years or the months or the days, but down to the very second. 

In your future, He has marked moments where time and eternity are going to come together, and you will be at the right place and get the break you need." [x]

Aaaaahhhh~~ Can you imagine that?
Still looking forward with great passion and excitement for that day!

Just beautiful ♥

Life on earth is hard...

Life on earth is hard; thank God for that. 

Let's look forward to eternity~ ^^

Watermelon Seeds

 

Even if there are things that can make life difficult, life itself is still worth living.

There are so much more to life than your current problem :)

Besides, watermelon seeds are not that bad.
Just swallow it down ;)

Confessions of a (Young) Project-Based Member

Knowing people for the first time and being certain that they'll eventually leave.
Since from the start, I've been dealing with fear.

Being left alone. Feeling all the pressure. Carrying all the burdens.
Innocence equates to lack of experience.

This ain't an excuse. I am willing to learn, I am ready to accept the responsibilities.
But please remember that I am still in progress.

I know, I don't have full control... and that's what makes me more fearful.

Let me know what's happening.
With that, I can make myself ready for change - which I expect but hate.

In addition, I value people. But change is inevitable. That's why, I suffer even more.

"This is just business. Don't take it personally."
Just like what I said from the start, I work with passion.
I invest on something wholeheartedly. Telling me all that will never be valid.

On a lighter note, I am enjoying the ride. I've got nothing to lose. I am learning a lot.

Dear Abbie, Mama knows best :))

Mama's out. Papa's sleeping.
She has no other choice...

Abbie: Ate Mae, malibang ko.
Ako: *taranta* Ha? Paghubo dayun ug panty! Pagdali! Nah, maka-igit napud gani ka ah!
Abbie: *nag-dali2x*

Gi-open ang CR, balik dayon sa computer... Abbie, nalibang.

Minutes later...

Abbie: Ate Mae!
Ako: *computer*
Abbie: Ate Mae! Humana ko!
Ako: *computer*
Abbie: Ate Mae! Ate Mae!
Ako: *nakadungog pero computer japun*
Abbie: Ateeeeeeeeeeee!!

Mama's home.

Ako: *overjoyed* Bi, naa na si Mama~~!
Mama: Kabalo ko, kabalo ko~~ *with a smile*
Ako: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

She knows I didn't want to clean Abbie's butt. HAHAHA!

Sorry Bi, I love you but not your butt... Your butt with your stinky shit. HAHAHAHA And besides, I hate cleaning your butt with my foot because I can't do it with my own hands. My hands belong to my own shit alone. And even if you don't mind me using my foot to clean your butt, my conscience tells me that it's not good and it's rude. But that's how I do it. That's the only way I could do it. That's why, I hate doing it. I opt to not do it. Makes sense?

HAHAHA Sorry Abbie.. Aryat kaayo imung Ate XD

I LOVE YOU~~ ^^♥

Officemate thought I am an only child...

Because Papa brought me snacks on my first day of work.

"Pinalangga siguro kay ka."

"Palangga jud kaayo Ma'am."

I don't like being praised but when people compliment my parents, it just feels different.
Proud and grateful. AHHHHH~~ ♥

:')

I AM OKAY

Exactly one month ago, I was hesitant. Scared. Uncertain.

I took the risk because I have to. Even if I knew from the very start that going through that door would lead me to a world that I never hoped for.

Independence Day 2013. I was defeated by my hollow form.

I shut down my social networking accounts and hid myself from everyone. When I have a personal problem, I usually don't like telling anyone (even my closest friends or my mom). I am not used to sharing my inner struggles because I always have the urge to protect those who are involved. But that was just a different story.

I was too hurt and suppressing the pain hurt me even more. Until this idiot came.

Kathreen Poculan. The baddest female alive. HAHAHA

She's that person who carries a lot of burden on her shoulders but can still make you feel happy despite all that. Yes, she has BIG problems. Be ashamed if you don't realize that after she makes you laugh. But what the heck! That girl is an idiot. She can make everyone happy even if she's bleeding inside. She's a strong woman.

It's been a month. And this time, I can finally say, I AM OKAY.

I believe God comforts you in times of trouble by sending His angels. I never asked her help (even if I badly needed it) but she came. Thanks Kat! I truly believe He created that day when we first knew each other for a greater purpose.

Remember that it's okay for us to be happy. It's okay for us to be sad. At the end of the day, we can always look forward to the sunrise. Just like what you said, "we're not lost". Let's be happy together. Let's be sad together.

Let's continue to sail together until we could get there.

Worry. Pray.

"If ever you worry, pray. If you pray, don't worry."

- KP

God will direct your steps.

A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps. Proverbs 16:9, NKJV.  

Oftentimes, God will use our experiences in life as stepping stones to prepare us for what He has in store next. Scripture tells us that He’ll even take the things the enemy tries to bring against us and turn them around and use them for our good. He is always leading us on a journey of preparation.  

That’s why it’s so important to keep our eyes focused on Him. We have to trust that when we are submitted to Him—even if we don’t understand—He is ordering our steps. If something is not happening on your timetable, remind yourself, “God knows what He is doing. He has my best interest at heart. God is preparing me.” While you’re waiting, don’t make the mistake of trying to figure everything out. If you’re constantly trying to figure things out, that will only frustrate you. Turn it over to God. Declare, “God, my times are in Your hands. I’m not going to worry because I trust that You are leading me on a journey of preparation for all the wonderful blessings You have in store for me.” [x]

Yeah, things will surely get better soon. You'll get there. *pats own self*

Independence Day 2013

I'd rather choose to cry and to be called as weak
than explain myself and disrespect you.

I'd rather choose to hurt you by keeping my mouth shut
than say nasty things and hurt you even more.

I'd rather choose to work hard in silence
than slap you in the face with my progress.

I was hurt that's why I cried. I couldn't stop crying because it was frustrating; I couldn't do anything. I know you were influenced by something; you were not in your normal state of mind. But I believe you utter the words that you were trying to keep inside your heart; you were disappointed. I can't blame you. But... Is it too much to ask for your patience? For your understanding? For your trust?

It hurts because I was expecting too much. I thought I did enough to gain your respect and trust. But I guess all the sacrifices were not enough. But don't worry, I won't give up. I will try to endure the pain. I will remain strong. I will work hard. But I can't promise you that I will forget that day. The scar will always be there. The wound is too deep it would take years to heal.

Current state: Shut down. Too hurt to socialize. It may take a while.

Hmm...

"Maybe he wasn't the wrong one. Maybe it was the society. 
Decades ago the right belief was that the planet earth was in the center of the universe and the ones who thought different should face their deaths. 
Society believed that and they were wrong."

She said SORRY today.

I was crying hard that I almost barely can breathe.
She thought it was because of a trivial matter; but it was totally not about that.
I expected her to understand the situation that's why I was confident to commit on such act.
But she disappointed me.
She didn't lend me her hand when I asked for help.
She remained firm with her pride.
She didn't move even if my heart was about to explode.
Until the tears started pouring.
When my hands were freezing.
Then crying hard while opening my mouth was the only best way to inhale.
I didn't cry because of that trivial matter.
I cried because I was wrong when I thought that she would understand.
I cried because I was hurt of the thought that she would choose her pride over my pathetic self.
I cried because I was yearning for her affection.
As expected from a brat.

I am sorry I was acting childish.
I am sorry I am not a grown up yet.
I am sorry for hurting you.
I am sorry for shouting back at you.
I am sorry I showed you my anger.
I am sorry I told you how I felt.
I am sorry for being selfish.
I am sorry for being emotionally weak.

I wasn't able to open my eyes because of the tears.
I can't even move and lean to your direction because my body was freezing.
But I felt you were tearing while patting my back and asking me to calm down.
You were sorry for hurting me; when the truth is, it is I who hurt you more.

I am sorry I am your daughter.
Thank you for being my mother.

Awkward Octopus Mini Game #wongfu10yrs

Let me just start this post by saying that today is pretty legit... Mae in Progress.

June 8, 2:42 AM before sleeping, I sent an email to Wong Fu Productions.

I wanted to share my awkward octopus mini game to them which I hesitated of sharing. But when I saw Wong Fu's tweet about their 10th anniversary, I kinda thought of uploading the game for them to see, serving as a gift of appreciation for the amazing 10 years they shared to us, their fans (though it's been 2 years for me so far).

I actually was planning of posting the link on Wong Fu's facebook page. But I was too shy that my "facebook friends" would see it, might tease me or anything. Sorry, I'm awkward and timid like that. Yes, even sharing this to Wong Fu, I was not 100% confident with it. Because I really thought they deserve so much better. But time was not on my side, that's the best I could do so far *sigh* That's why I sent it via gmail. Knowing that they would receive a lot of mail, so if my message got noticed, then it's probably fine to share it to them. That's my hint to forgive myself for creating a very simple game *sigh*sigh*

Last night was also a sad day for me. Things were very cluttered and I was fighting against all the negative emotions. Oh, you know, this growing up stuff. The post graduation dilemma. So thank you Wes! Your message just saved me from that.

After posting the news (Wesley's reply) on facebook, I realized that my decision was right. Not posting the link of the game on Wong Fu's facebook page because some "friends" won't understand how important this is for me. It's ok though, I can't blame them, they don't know the whole story :) But the great thing is, my teachers' likes :D Ma'am Aloha, Sir Rabby, Sir Bouying, Sir Erik... Those guys are my mentors and it makes me feel so happy by thinking that they "like" my fangirling milestone. Or was it because of my asdfghjkl-ing caption?

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!! SA KADAGHAN PWEDE MU-REPLY NGANONG SI WESLEY PA MAAAAAAAAAANNNNNN?!?!!! AAAAAAAAAHHHHH~~  

I ROCK!! OMGGGGGGG WHAT IS AIR OMFGAJKSHHFJDF!!! (ノД`)・゜・。

Ahhh~ Whatever their reasons, I'm happy for their "support" XD I won't be able to do this without their guidance though. Especially Sir Erik, who required us to create a game and taught us about Adobe Flash.

So yeah, that's it. Cuz this post is getting very long. HAH!

Click HERE if you want to play the game.

Please don't expect to much. The game is very simple and boring.

Write on the comment box or tweet me for your constructive criticism. I would love to hear your experience so I could improve the game. Thanks!

By the way, check out Wong Fu's 10th Anniversary special HERE.
It's pretty legit to say that I recognize 95% in the video. The video clips, the pictures, their website, their store, their apartment, their office, their stories. Made me cry actually.

Congrats for the amazing 10 years Wong Fu Productions! You've grown up so well. More years to come. Thank you for the inspiration! WONG FU 4 LYFE!! "VV"