It's just ME. *sigh*

When someone trusts me... but I don't believe in myself.
I feel thankful. I feel the pressure.

When someone considers my potential... but I doubt my capabilities.
I feel flattered. I feel the pressure.

When someone relies on me... but I feel weak.
I feel honored. I feel the pressure.

When someone forgives me... but I can't stop blaming myself.
I feel relieved. I feel the pressure.

I am not afraid of failure.
But I hate failing when others will be compromised.

Don't trust me much.
Don't consider my potential all the time.
Don't rely on me always.

I feel the HUGE responsibility.
That pressures me. That crushes me along the way.

If I fail, you might forgive me. But I can't forgive myself easily.
And that kills me in the end.

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It has nothing to do with anyone else. It's just ME.
Upset and frustrated with myself.

Don't be too hard on yourself next time, Mae. *pats own self*