Wait...

Last weekend, I made a "small" mistake which made a BIG impact in my current journey.

As HR, I would always feel bad when a staff quits in a middle of a problem or struggle.
I believe it is normal also to think that way. It is normal to find the quick fix of the problem.
And that quick fix is to quit, leading to a different path after.

Reflecting on my 2 years and 7 months in this current journey that I am in,
I know that the Lord is leading me to something that he has been planning.
As His struggling faithful servant (that I continuously strive to live by), I offered myself for the fulfillment of His plan.

I don't want to quit just because I am exhausted.
My God is bigger than the pain, and He will rescue me and He will find a way.

He said "No", and I humbly followed, even if it was very painful.
Self-denial. He is teaching me to become humble.
And because of my prideful nature, I am struggling.

But I believe my God is a faithful god. He is loving, He is merciful.
And He always keeps His promises.

I will forever cling onto that fact as I struggle in this current path.
For I know, the Holy Spirit reveals in my heart, my God has the best plans for me.

Father, I will wait.. Help me not to cry too much as I wait.
Help me to be genuinely joyful.
Guard my fragile heart.
Help me to focus on Your mercy.
Provide me the everyday graces that I need.

Take my lunch, for the fulfillment of Your plan.