Keep Walking ~

Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake.

When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. 

“It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear. 

But Jesus immediately said to them:

“Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”

“Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.” 

“Come,” he said. 

Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 

But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!” Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. 

“You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?” 

- Matthew 14:25-31

'Little' faith means immature faith. Faith, to be mature, must be tempered with courage, also known as fortitude. Courage only is manifested in the face of danger. If there is no danger, no threat, no trial, then there is no possibility of courage. Mature faith means believing more in what you can’t see than in the terrifying things you can see. It means keeping the eyes of your heart fixed on the master of the wind and waves even as you feel the spray in your face. 

The most frequently repeated phrase in the gospels is 'Do not be afraid!' The Lord is not speaking to our emotions here, since you can't command emotions. He is speaking to our will. We must make a conscious decision not to allow fear to paralyze us. Peter sank because he stopped walking. 

Faith means to keep walking even when your knees are knocking. [x]

Like Peter, I asked the Lord to "call" me. I am a little faith with a big ambition to walk on the water as what Jesus did. With that faith, I believe that He brought me to where I am for the fulfillment of His will.

Now, I am here.

... and it's been a year.

I took my foot from the boat, believing that I can walk on the water towards Jesus. As I continue to walk, waves get stronger. A lot of frustrations and provoking situations - anger, disappointments, anxiety, pride - that almost let me want to get drowned. But all was defeated and enveloped by His love.

Like Peter, I want to walk towards God.
Like Peter, not everyone will walk with me.
Like Peter, my body will defeat my spirit.
Like Peter, I will sink.

And like Peter, God will rescue me.

Continuing to pray for the gift of faith, everyday.
Let's keep walking~ (even with wobbling knees) ☺♥