A happy person can be sad too...

I open up rarely.
Don't make fun of my emotions.
It tells me that I have no right to be sad.
It's depressing.
Srsly.

I am a human being.
I feel this effin' sadness.
For the record, I don't act.
It's never my fault.
I never wanted this.

If you can't stand my sadness, leave me alone.
Thank you. Just a little respect.

/sigh/ Ever since, I am not into sharing my real emotions. It seems like the world has no room for my inner struggles. People making fun of me because I allow them to. They laugh, and feel happy about it. But when I'm sad, it feels like I don't have the right. Why people? Why? Why are you so selfish? Just depressing.

Like you guys, I can be sad too :(

FAITH

"FAITH is not the belief that God will do what you want. 

It is the belief that God will do what is RIGHT."

Happy Day!!

I was really sad every time I feel the pain you were keeping in your heart. It was so selfish for me to laugh at your jokes and thank you for making me happy. I was really sad when you left. It was so selfish for me to feel that way when I knew you were for a great journey.

This time, after hearing what I've been waiting for... I am just the happiest. I am really happy to hear the news. Is it still so selfish for me to be this happy?

I want to celebrate but I don't think it's enough. The happiness that I feel right now, I don't know how to fully express it. I want to thank God for all His plans. You have gone through a lot of struggles and pain but this moment wouldn't be any sweeter if not because of all that.

I am just so happy for you Kathy! ♥ 

From the start, I know He knew how to reward you. He has been always there for you. He has seen everything. He knows your pure heart. And thank you for not giving up! I won't feel this kind of happiness if you didn't follow your heart. I am so proud of you Kathy! :)

Let's keep pushing Ahjumma! We'll really get there. He will bring us there! Araso? Hwaiting!!

PS. This blog is srlsy becoming an Allkpop daily, weekly, monthly, yearly update about you. HAHA But that awesome moment na kita rang duha ang nakasabot sa atong kahimtang. Ahhhh~~ Ako ra ang naka-subscribe sa Allkpop. HAHAHA God bless sa journey Ahjumma!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ 

I miss you Ahjumma~ ♥

They said I was sad when you left because I will start eating my lunch alone.
Little did they know, our friendship is way more than that.

I never treated you as my lunch buddy.
You were the only one who selflessly gave your time to comfort me.
Having lunch together during those difficult days, I never thought of you being there to accompany me.
Your presence gave me strength. Your presence gave me the courage to believe in myself.
You were not my lunch buddy. You were not just there during lunch.
You were my "best" friend. You have been there ALWAYS.

People might find this OA.
But they won't understand. They never would. They never could.
Wala koy mapagawsan sa akong gibati T_T
I have to do this for myself. Pasaylua akong aryat nga hemotion ><

I miss you Ahjumma~~ T.T
Thank you for "spreading love love love" with me maskin naa naka dira ♥
This physical distance is hurting us <////3
Wa na qy ka-chat sa fb ><
Worse, dili na tika basta2x makuhit :((
Worst, dili na ta maka-fangirl (ug burak) together T______T HAHAHA
But thank you Globe and TM for unlicall and text. BAHAHAHAHA!

I miss you Kat T.T
But I am not sad :)
I am so happy hearing great things happening to you ♥
Konting tiis ahjumma... We'll get there. Araso? :D

Saranghae~~ Hwaiting!!! ♥

PS. Boomshakalaka! :))))

PPS. Posted this on the 20th of September... Exactly 3 months after I started to become okay. Thank you Kat. Being there with me on that very day, you have no idea how grateful I was and will forever be. Kamsahamnida Ahjumma-ssi! :)

PPPS. I really miss you Ahjumma :(( But I'm really happy for you ♥

PPPPS. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA wala na bitaw XD Annyeong! :P

PPPPPS. Naa pa bitaw :P HAHAHAH akong last 2 posts kay starring kay ka. Yung totoo! Imu ning blog? Artista ka? Allkpop daily, weekly, monthly, yearly update? HAHAHA Annyeong najud! ^^

T.T

"Cry if you need to, it's healthy to shed your tears. 

The sooner you do, the sooner you will be able to smile again..."

Adjustment stage...

T.T

People come and go...

People come and go... I truly believe in that. All sorts of relationship are not permanent. Nothing in this world is constant. But I strongly believe that God gave us the will to decide.

I can't take how I feel. I have seen people leaving but this time, it's just different. I can't put it into words. But one thing's clear, if you leave, a part of me will be missing.

I won't ask you to stay. In fact, I want you to go and follow your heart. I want you to reach your dreams. I want you to be happy about yourself. I have seen you sad a lot of times. It's a pity because I can't help you enough. I'm sorry for being selfish when I say that when you leave, I will be sad. I will be sad everyday when I think of the situation. But don't think about it. Because at the same time I will be happy. I am proud of you for taking the risk, for being so brave.

People come and go... but we have the will to decide to be together and be there for each other until the end, no matter what.

Enjoy the journey my friend. I know you could do it! 

I'm gonna miss you. Please take care and see you soon~ ♥

PS. Sige ra kog hilak T.T On the replay pajud ang HARU sa Suju. Ikaw najud akong madumduman pag mu-play na ni sa aqng playlist. Maglaslas na daun ko kay mag-hemote napud si ahjumma. Haaayyy~~

Ahjumma, HWAITING!!! ♥

Small honest talks.

"I am a man. I am not that sensitive.
I am a westerner. That makes me more insensitive.
Worst. I am more insensitive than any westerner.
I need your help. Guide me."

Not the exact words but that's the thought.

Again, it has nothing to do with anyone else...
But that made me understand you better, Sir.
Thanks. I'll try my best :)

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I wholeheartedly believe that "man is born good". If we open our mind and find out the real story behind, I think we would understand why people act as such.

Small honest talks... Reaching out and sharing thoughts. One of my favorites in life.

It's just ME. *sigh*

When someone trusts me... but I don't believe in myself.
I feel thankful. I feel the pressure.

When someone considers my potential... but I doubt my capabilities.
I feel flattered. I feel the pressure.

When someone relies on me... but I feel weak.
I feel honored. I feel the pressure.

When someone forgives me... but I can't stop blaming myself.
I feel relieved. I feel the pressure.

I am not afraid of failure.
But I hate failing when others will be compromised.

Don't trust me much.
Don't consider my potential all the time.
Don't rely on me always.

I feel the HUGE responsibility.
That pressures me. That crushes me along the way.

If I fail, you might forgive me. But I can't forgive myself easily.
And that kills me in the end.

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It has nothing to do with anyone else. It's just ME.
Upset and frustrated with myself.

Don't be too hard on yourself next time, Mae. *pats own self*

SS3 Live in Carbide

Because I'm naughty, naughty~~

BAM BAM-BAM-BAM BAM-BAM!

Bounce to you bounce to you, nae ga sema noh

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Break it down to you, down to you, nae ga sema noh!

Because we fangirl like that yo!

Uri Shupi Juni....

O-eyo!

HAHAHAHAHAHA

:P

August 31-September 1. Charr. 2-day concert ang peg? HAHAHAHA

Dili makontento mag-fangirl sa facebook. Nag-overnight nalang jud para mutan-aw ug Super Show 3. HAHAHA Fun night. Thanks Kathy~~ ♥

Ok ra di ta ka-adto sa SS5 this year. Naa si bb kyu, mag-enjoy jud ko! Pero wala imung yesung-ah, i don't care HAHAHAHAHA so pangit japun. Bati man sad ang concept. Di lang jud ta ka-afford sa 8,800 HAHAHAHA

Annyeong :P