She thought it was because of a trivial matter; but it was totally not about that.
I expected her to understand the situation that's why I was confident to commit on such act.
But she disappointed me.
She didn't lend me her hand when I asked for help.
She remained firm with her pride.
She didn't move even if my heart was about to explode.
Until the tears started pouring.
When my hands were freezing.
Then crying hard while opening my mouth was the only best way to inhale.
I didn't cry because of that trivial matter.
I cried because I was wrong when I thought that she would understand.
I cried because I was hurt of the thought that she would choose her pride over my pathetic self.
I cried because I was yearning for her affection.
As expected from a brat.
I am sorry I was acting childish.
I am sorry I am not a grown up yet.
I am sorry for hurting you.
I am sorry for shouting back at you.
I am sorry I showed you my anger.
I am sorry I told you how I felt.
I am sorry for being selfish.
I am sorry for being emotionally weak.
I wasn't able to open my eyes because of the tears.
I can't even move and lean to your direction because my body was freezing.
But I felt you were tearing while patting my back and asking me to calm down.
You were sorry for hurting me; when the truth is, it is I who hurt you more.
I am sorry I am your daughter.
Thank you for being my mother.
YOU'RE FORGIVEN.. NO WORRY NOW..
ReplyDeleteWe are here always for you whatever happens.
Everybody may turn their back against you, never will we.
Our dear, remember that we are your friends expecting nothing in return.
Come and embrace us tight and we will wipe and dry your tears.
Come and talk to us and we will heal your wound.
Every time we feel your heartbreak, it breaks our heart into pieces.
So, stop crying and draw a smile in your pretty face.
Come, let's paint a smile together.
We do never regret to have you, keep that in mind.
We know that we can never relieved your heartaches at this moment.
But we are pretty sure that we will listen closely and lean our shoulders when you are ready to give a shot.
We want to tell you that...
"Life is tough but yet so wonderful"
We love and miss you :* >:D<
Love,
Your pretty friends & second mom.
Dearest Ms. Anonymous
Deleteslash pretty friends & second mom,
I hope you didn't get the message wrong. Putting her on a situation to be judged has never crossed in my mind and never will be. The main purpose of the post is to show how awesome she is despite having a pathetic daughter.
It's totally not about this.
"Long story", just like what I always say.
But thank you. I know I can always count on you.
But the problem was myself. It's all about ME.
I miss you too. I hate doing this but I have to.
I'm sorry. Again, see you when I'm ready.