It has been a while since the last time.
And same as the previous times, I came here again to try to pour out an overwhelming emotions that occupy my heart. Hoping it can at least keep it calm.
It is 2020. A new year, new beginning.
To some up the years that went by without writing it all here, it was tough... but sweet.
Looking back, I never thought I would be who I am today.
I was pursuing Him, at the same time, entrusting and letting Him do as He will.
Nohing much has changed. I am still here.
But just middle of last year, He gave me a 'gift'.
I was caught off guard. Everything went by so fast.
And I know the gift was from Him.
I understood how He prepared me to receive the gift.
I understood how He wrapped the gift perfectly well.
I understood how He brought us at the right time together.
But it is a bit painful.
It hurts as I cannot just share the precious gift to everyone.
They will not understand my whole journey.
Nobody really saw everything except Him.
Father, thank You.
Thank You for always reminding me about Your love for me through 'her'.
Altough it is painful, thank You for making it extra sweet.
I may feel sad for now as I want to share her so bad, but I will continue to wait.
I will wait same as the other years.
I will wait for your better plans and right timing.
Thank You because the sadness makes it more special.
It is between me, You and her.
Before, when I cry, it is just You who would see all.
And I will ask You to hug me while I cry.
Today, I can really feel Your hug.
Your loving hug wrapped though her gentle and comforting arms.
Thank You, Father.
Thank You for wrapping Your gift of love.
I will continue to serve You with her.
Please help us to fulfill Your will.
Sustain us every day so we can accomplish the tasks that You have assigned to us.
Help us so we can be the best that You want us to be for others and for each other.
❤️
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Ikuzo, 'Zangetsu'!
Thank you for always being there. Thank your for helping me to overcome my inner hollow. Thank you for giving me your 'strength'.
When the visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes [...]
I'll be your strength
I'll give you hope
Keping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call
Was standing there all along
And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Til' the day my life is through
This I promise you [...]
I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow
Forever has now begun
Happy New Year Lalaaab ❤️
I do not really believe in promises, but let us continue to pray that He will allow us to be together forever, taman sa guyuron na tika kay intawun ang tuhod 😁😅
