"Epaphras, who is one of you and a servant of Christ Jesus, sends greetings.
He is always wrestling in prayer for you,
that you may stand firm in all the will of God, mature and fully assured.
I vouch for him that he is working hard for you and for those at Laodicea and Hierapolis."
- Colossians 4:12-13
Yesterday, I poured out my frustrations to my boss.
As HR, he considers me as someone who he can casually call to throw his tantrums.
This was our agreement to protect the people.
But yesterday was different, he did the favour for me, I throw the "shit" on him, and he listened.
Today, God answered me very clearly.
Pouring out all my emotions to others is never easy. Usually, I will feel good for a moment, but would feel bad for a very long time.
This year, I set up my resolve and one of it is to control my emotions and not to pour it all out to anyone but God. And I just broke that after the conversation with my boss.
The conversation was not bad, it was actually very good. But it was bothering me since last night.
Today, God talked to me very deeply.
Be like Epaphras.
There will be battles. A lot of battles.
Like Epaphras, we need to wrestle with the dark forces through prayers.
To fervently pray always. To offer all frustrations and worries up to Him.
Because the power of prayer is not on the one who says it, but on the one who listens to it.
The power of prayer is in God. In your faith in Him.
Trusting Him that He is in control.
So you continue to give your best as you pray for the people.
Not to give up, and continue to love His people, because they are His people, and He loves them.
Love them because you love Him.
Today, I want to remind myself of His strong message to me.
Continue to fight, Mae. Be like Epaphras, through Jesus. All for His greater glory.