He was afraid he'd lose his job. He was afraid to lose the lifestyle he was accustomed to having. He was afraid of what other people will say if he downgrades his lifestyle.
This big, imposing, intimidating man was really a coward, a man run by many fears.
I've long realized that the only antidote to fear is love.
This man had very little love in his life.
He needs to experience the immensity of God's love for him more. He needs to genuinely love himself more. He has to experience waking up in the morning loving life itself more.
Friend, make a decision to receive more love in your life today.
And choose!
19 months of experiencing life away from home to achieve 2 things: training and growth.
It's been tough. Really tough. And maybe, it's already enough.
2 weeks of constantly thinking about it and listening to what He wants to tell me.
I guess, He wants me to go back home.
Fears. There are so much fears. Uncertainties about what is waiting for me.
But He has been always faithful. Even if I feel this way, I believe it will be okay.
He will make a way.
I am going home because my whole being is exhausted. My body, soul, and spirit are all corrupted. I am going home because I need to love myself again. I am going home because I need to serve Him better. I am going home because the thought of "achieving something" went over my life's purpose.
I am going home because I am choosing
love.
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." - Matthew 11:28
