This is probably the last post of the month, for the next month, and so on. I'm not certain when will I be sharing my progress again, my rants, or my random thoughts.
Going to Cebu hours from now in God's will.
And I feel nervous. Cuz I know I will be experiencing different kinds of emotions.
But at the same time, I am excited. Cuz I want and badly need this!!! ...for myself.
As selfish as it may sound, I am doing this for myself.
For my training. For my growth. For my betterment.
I believe God has the best plans.
Allowing me to take this path tells me that I am for a certain purpose.
From this, I will be giving pain to those who love me and much more to myself.
But I know it will be all worth it.
Let's loosen up and get out from those depressing thoughts.
I shall return!
With a better Mae ☺
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
Saturday, January 11, 2014
Mae In Progress Chapter 1: RAWR
The "New Year" post...
It's actually about THIS DAY... My last day on my first job.
The story all started on "Independence Day". The time when I was fighting against a horrible pain. And I must say, my first job somewhat saved me from that. With an angel's help, I was able to say "I AM OKAY".
Days, weeks... I finally found my corner at the office. Although there were a lot of times when I felt like a pathetic person who seemed to blame my impractical 4 years of training in college, I must admit, I learned a lot of things.
There may be a lot of times when I felt pressured and stressed out...
But then, I enjoy E V E R Y T H I N G.
What's your weakness? He asked me during my interview. I am a VERY SENSITIVE person. I tend to work according to my emotions. My output usually reflects my feelings. If I am not happy with what I am doing, I deliver a substandard product.
As a fresh graduate, I sometimes if not most of the time feel inferior. It's like, there's a thirst on applying everything that you've learned from the university. And when I was not given the opportunity to fully show what I've got, I get to feel useless. And I believe my feelings are acceptable.
I quit because I felt it was unfair. It's unfair that I am given such huge trust even if I am not yet capable enough to do all the task. It's unfair that I am giving the best of my ability, even surpassing my limits, and praised because of that yet feel like I am useless.
As much as I hate the idea of "leaving", I aim to improve myself.
Training and growth. Two things that I am hoping to experience for the coming months.
It was a VERY HARD decision.
But thank you Sir. Thank you for not making it hard for me to leave. Thank you for an amazing last week. Thank you for wishing me well.
Thank you because after 6 months, in the end, I regret nothing.
I may ended last year with a terrified heart... But this time, I am so excited to experience all the worst and best things in life!
PS. with emphasis...
GOD IS THE BEST IN GIVING AWESOME SURPRISES!! ^^ Don't be a spoiler if you want to be awesomely surprised. Justtrust me trust Him... He is soooooo good at it. His plans are the best! ;)
PPS.
Mama, Kathy, Sharmagne, Mahal, ZUMATZ... Thank you for being a great part of this journey ♥
It's actually about THIS DAY... My last day on my first job.
The story all started on "Independence Day". The time when I was fighting against a horrible pain. And I must say, my first job somewhat saved me from that. With an angel's help, I was able to say "I AM OKAY".
Days, weeks... I finally found my corner at the office. Although there were a lot of times when I felt like a pathetic person who seemed to blame my impractical 4 years of training in college, I must admit, I learned a lot of things.
There may be a lot of times when I felt pressured and stressed out...
But then, I enjoy E V E R Y T H I N G.
What's your weakness? He asked me during my interview. I am a VERY SENSITIVE person. I tend to work according to my emotions. My output usually reflects my feelings. If I am not happy with what I am doing, I deliver a substandard product.
As a fresh graduate, I sometimes if not most of the time feel inferior. It's like, there's a thirst on applying everything that you've learned from the university. And when I was not given the opportunity to fully show what I've got, I get to feel useless. And I believe my feelings are acceptable.
I quit because I felt it was unfair. It's unfair that I am given such huge trust even if I am not yet capable enough to do all the task. It's unfair that I am giving the best of my ability, even surpassing my limits, and praised because of that yet feel like I am useless.
As much as I hate the idea of "leaving", I aim to improve myself.
Training and growth. Two things that I am hoping to experience for the coming months.
It was a VERY HARD decision.
But thank you Sir. Thank you for not making it hard for me to leave. Thank you for an amazing last week. Thank you for wishing me well.
Thank you because after 6 months, in the end, I regret nothing.
I may ended last year with a terrified heart... But this time, I am so excited to experience all the worst and best things in life!
Off to a great adventure~ RAWR!!
PS. with emphasis...
GOD IS THE BEST IN GIVING AWESOME SURPRISES!! ^^ Don't be a spoiler if you want to be awesomely surprised. Just
PPS.
Mama, Kathy, Sharmagne, Mahal, ZUMATZ... Thank you for being a great part of this journey ♥
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
New Year
Am I allowed to start this year with a sad post? Meh...
I was actually happy throughout the day until the clock strikes at 12; with all the fireworks and noise, there are a lot of things I look forward to every new year. But...
Okay. So sad to continue typing.
UGGGGHHHH
WHAT'S WRONG MAE!!!!
T.T
Terrified.
Please pray for my soul :(
PS. Still... Happy New Year!
I was actually happy throughout the day until the clock strikes at 12; with all the fireworks and noise, there are a lot of things I look forward to every new year. But...
Okay. So sad to continue typing.
UGGGGHHHH
WHAT'S WRONG MAE!!!!
T.T
Terrified.
Please pray for my soul :(
PS. Still... Happy New Year!
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