I never wanted change. I am into routine. I embrace my comfort zone. But someone told me once that
the only way for me to grow is to make my space bigger.
When I was dealing with all those things by myself, I never felt completely alone. It may sound pathetic but
they were somewhat the reason why I kept myself sane. I won't explain how because I've realized that I don't have to let everyone know the whole story. Silence can sometimes be used as an armor against judgmental people. I won't ask for everyone's understanding because I am only bound to do so to those who matter to me; who would accept and understand me without asking anything.
Two months ago,
she came and helped me to stand again. One month after that, I finally told myself "
I AM OKAY". Now, she knocked on my door. She tried to step into a world that I created for myself, for my own happiness. She's starting to find happiness by knowing
them.
I guess I have to thank "Yesung-ah" for leading you into this "world" XD
Again, let's not stress ourselves. Let's remind each other that this is just another source of happiness. We don't have to take responsibilities. We don't have to take so much effort. We don't have to hurt ourselves just to be happy.
Thank you for being with me again, Kathy.
Today has definitely been a new and great experience.
Please remember that it's okay to change. It's okay to decide for yourself. It's okay to stick with your decision despite everyone's disapproval. As long as you're not hurting anyone, believe in your judgment.
Today, I am really proud of you. You have been so brave to take such change. And thank you for dragging me along.
Just so you know, I feel a lot better.
And less lonely much happier :)
I am not certain of what's gonna happen next week, next month. But one thing's for sure, I am satisfied with what we did today.
BAM BA-BAM-BAM BAM-BAM :)))
